I woke up with a pang in my side only for me to turn over and pull that thorn out. I realized what I have to do in order to become more successful in life, and that’s hitting pause on some dreams, so that I can make way to finish up what needs to be done in order to come back to it and make it something spectacular. When you are like me–have one million dreams and goals already with 150,000 things going on–and you’re the ONLY one that’s taking care of everything including all the financial responsibilities for every day life+fun+future (since Sir Eisenhower still isn’t making money yet like Mr Crabs!), it just gets difficult with not having all the TIME in the world to do everything that needs/wants to be done. Add in exhaustion of doing this for two years plus a massive sneak of depression that has certainly landed me short of the looney bin…..
I hate hate hate doing this, and–to be quite honest–a comment that someone dear to me once told me almost a year ago reminded me that it is much better to do something the right way the first time and not half assed. Sadly, my efforts into BSG have become a habit of the latter. None of that is intentional of course, it just happens when you have so much going on that all one is doing could be under the face of “too busy” or “trying to catch up” and then it doesn’t become fun anymore… like chores…. I woke up this morning with that on my mind and it was one of those things I just don’t like like dealing with… I don’t want to be seen in the marine industry as a failure, because I want to be a part of the success that turns the industry around for the millennials and its future.
So, with having said that, this decision comes as an extremely tough one. Last year, I went to the Suncoast Boat Show and divvied up the Bradenton show in June as my last show for the summer. This year, unfortunately, I’m starting early and will not be attending one of my most favorite shows, Suncoast.
The guys at World of Boating have been so patient with me and giving me career advice out the wazoo. Last weekend it was presented that “now is the time to go traveling” — it is, but it isn’t, but it is what I want to do. In order to make BSG a success, I am going to have to travel, which means I need to get all of my ducks in a row on figuring out my process. I can’t be all up in the air with unfinished business as I do right now. I have to have a multitude of will-be-successes behind me before I go out, travel and preach BSG. I need more than one purpose to go places and I need to share those experiences, but what? That’s what I need to figure out.
Right now, I’ve been doing a whole lot of reading and writing and most of it has to do with my poetry stuff especially since it’s poetry month. While I have some of that time and the creative motives to do writing, I need to continue that until that ball also drops. I am–after all–mostly a writer and if I don’t write and experience to write, what’s the point of my main focus in life?
This summer (besides making it to one year of helping out at the theatre for the summer one acts), I will be secretly working on stuff for BSG, still participating in the World of Boating show, and my process of visiting boat shows this upcoming fall starting with either IBEX or Tampa…whichever comes first. Which means, yeah, you probably won’t see me on social media as BSG during the summer. There’s a book that I will be working on called Who Is Boat Show Girl? and I’m not sure when I’ll be publishing it, but it’s certainly one of those things that’s been on my to-do list for so long. I think this is a good time to introduce the world to BSG and make the future all about becoming something.
I want to come back with a lot of my other projects finished and caught up in certain aspects of my life so that I can solely focus on BSG and everything that I can make it.
It was also said by one of the WoB guys that boat shows isn’t where I need to be. More likely it is because it’s the one thing that has shown constant happiness for me, but it hasn’t been lately since I’ve lost a little bit of passion through being so overwhelmed with everything else. Like I said, I’m hitting pause on something so important to me, but it is an evil necessary to become successful and that is something I want to be.
I can’t seem to find the picture(s) right now, but a few years ago I took some where I was straight looking out above the helm of a rather large boat. It showed everything. It was magical and I could see my future. But now, I can’t see the future anymore, the glass has become a serious shade of hazy and I think that’s a good time to stop and regroup before I ruin something really great. What do you think?
As the Silicon Valley folks say, it’s time to pivot. And pivot I will do.
Thank you so much for following me along the way and I hope that you will continue to follow my path as BSG after I come back from my rather large “out of the blue” hiatus. If you ever have any suggestions on how to make my dreams come true sooner or if you want to offer me something when I come back from hiatus, please let me know.
-Karen Maeby the Boat Show Girl